Each summer I head to Boston for my yearly Dana Farber visit. I’m happy and grateful to have these remarkable people on my healing team. At the same time, as my appointment approaches, I experience a relatively serious amount of stress and anxiety. Even looking up the website to share as a link sent waves of nausea crashing over me!
The nausea isn’t about them — it’s about the cancer and my relationship to it. I’m relentlessly positive, and do many really wonderful things to strengthen myself physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. But, my positivity, and all my other good work, is sometimes overshadowed by my angst.
I needed a bit of a jolt to amp up my game. So, I buzzed off to see Catherine — a beautifully creative and awesome human being — for some henna and positive vibes.
She knew I wanted something powerful that could speak to me, and others. She didn’t disappoint.
How fantabulous is it?!! In case you’re not sure, the correct answer is “Awesomely fantabulous!!!”
Beyond the artistry, it’s fantabulous for the power it holds. It’s a philosophy of open acceptance of what is, and what can be.
Yes, I have to go to Dana Farber each summer, and frequently have blood drawn, and that is a great privilege and opportunity.
Yes, I am experiencing angst and stress, and I am happy and blessed.
Yes, I have cancer, and I have incredible health.
and, I am happy.
and, I am loved.
and, my body is working for optimal health, my mind is working for optimal learning, my spirit is working for optimal awesomeness.
and, there are untold possibilities. Possibilities that I know, and ones I have yet to discover or imagine.
As I write my yes, and thoughts, I realize there is a better, more creative way to look at my yes, and lists. I can be creative, re-think, re-cognize.
Often my and, is actually my yes.
I have cancer. Yes.
It feels huge, overpowering and all encompassing. It is a yes in my life, but absolutely, positively, not the essential yes of my life.
The essential yesses of my life are:
Yes, I am blessed, and …
Yes, I am happy, and …
Yes, I am loved, and …
Yes, I am healthy, and …
Yes, my body, mind, and spirit are working for optimal health, learning, and awesomeness, and …
Yes, the world is full of possibility, and …
Yes, I am, and am surrounded by, incredible abundance, and …
I’m digging the space that surrounds the yes, and in Catherine’s design. It speaks of the space we take as we hear, say and wonder about yes, and. It is a space waiting to be filled with breath, thoughts, conversation, prayer, openness, insight, creativity, being, and possibility.
I embrace the power and possibility, and wait with curious and hopeful joy.